Thursday, January 31, 2013

Ups and Downs

Well I am still here but its been tremendously hard for me.. Being alone isn’t the only issue. Sometimes it isn’t until your loved one is gone that you realize all they did  for you . I have had to deal with several firsts for me : as in  a hospital stay for chest pain, heart cath, found out I have blockages in my right leg that need to be taken care of and also a pseudo aneurysm in my left  caused by the heart cath. (it is actually a more common side effect of a heart cath). Tomorrow appointment with a vascular surgeon to see how to take care of it all… Dietmar was always there for me when things like this happened now its my kids I lean on especially my son. But life goes on as they say as hard as it sometimes is,,

I have started some changes in my life. I changed my facebook page

for my looming to a non profit and have started making baby hats and blankets to donate to the hospital in Dietmar’s memory. Some people have asked me why not chemo hats or  hospice Its simple right now I want to deal with the living not the dying.,, why don’t you stop by and say hello to me

We all deal with grief differently and I think he would like the baby thing since he was so crazy about our littlest grand daughter….

778751_10151160487767574_1893507783_oShe fell asleep in the box she was playing in… Our little sunshine.

After thinking long and hard about it I have decided to look for a new place to live this house has good memories but also bad ones and being closer to my son who lives in town I think would be a good thing for me.

I was hesitant about where but since my daughter lives further out in the country than me even though its only 10-15 minutes to town when you have chronic health issues then those minutes can be a lifetime as I found out 3 weekends ago. So closer to town or rather my son is what I am looking for.

740773_10151186919606205_1098411269_othis one is done except for  sewing the ends in.

615335_10151186920151205_139795952_oneed to get to Hobby Lobby for another skein of yellow to finish this one

705250_10151186920796205_644252284_o love this one with its colors.. very soft

778853_10151208031331205_557134599_othis one is not a donation but a friend of my daughters is expecting a baby girl in may so I am making this for her.. love the colors on it

I also have 4 baby hats done in Bernat baby blanket pink variegated yarn,,

It helps me focus and keeps me busy especially right now since my energy level is very low and the weather is so cold except the beginning of the week. I hope spring comes soon….

So that’s what I have been up too….

464308_10151155552406205_845837822_o a box of yarn someone donated to me for baby blankets.. all sports yarn so soft and such pretty colors… People have been so kind…..Thank you

100_1592 the hats

Well that’s all for today.. Hope everyone is well and staying warm in this cold…

hugs Mausie – Birgit