Well I am still here but its been tremendously hard for me.. Being alone isn’t the only issue. Sometimes it isn’t until your loved one is gone that you realize all they did for you . I have had to deal with several firsts for me : as in a hospital stay for chest pain, heart cath, found out I have blockages in my right leg that need to be taken care of and also a pseudo aneurysm in my left caused by the heart cath. (it is actually a more common side effect of a heart cath). Tomorrow appointment with a vascular surgeon to see how to take care of it all… Dietmar was always there for me when things like this happened now its my kids I lean on especially my son. But life goes on as they say as hard as it sometimes is,,
I have started some changes in my life. I changed my facebook page
for my looming to a non profit and have started making baby hats and blankets to donate to the hospital in Dietmar’s memory. Some people have asked me why not chemo hats or hospice Its simple right now I want to deal with the living not the dying.,, why don’t you stop by and say hello to me
We all deal with grief differently and I think he would like the baby thing since he was so crazy about our littlest grand daughter….
After thinking long and hard about it I have decided to look for a new place to live this house has good memories but also bad ones and being closer to my son who lives in town I think would be a good thing for me.
I was hesitant about where but since my daughter lives further out in the country than me even though its only 10-15 minutes to town when you have chronic health issues then those minutes can be a lifetime as I found out 3 weekends ago. So closer to town or rather my son is what I am looking for.
I also have 4 baby hats done in Bernat baby blanket pink variegated yarn,,
It helps me focus and keeps me busy especially right now since my energy level is very low and the weather is so cold except the beginning of the week. I hope spring comes soon….
So that’s what I have been up too….
Well that’s all for today.. Hope everyone is well and staying warm in this cold…
hugs Mausie – Birgit